forget this world and all its troubles and if possible its multitudinous charlatans everything in short but the restless enchantment of word which lies in liminal disexpression among sheets of madness
only madness can question not only a language but language
what can i do but stand silent before the words that spill from me
the question of madness turns thought into a question
despite society being as or possibly more repressive and agonistic toward alternative modes of thinking than previous ages and this mired in such verbiage of diversity i wish to to the extent possible release that is return madness into its freedoms i have done what i can in that which is called the world of action but now that that world is largely closed to me my actions are restricted to words words nomadic tents of madness
my project then is simply or at least simply stated to prove this civilization wrong not with this civilizations tools but mine there not only is reason in madness as much as in reason there may be even more in other words language is hardly always somewhere other than madness but rather madness is languages uncomfortable architect
more difficult in its obscurity than any political business or sports vocation is the artistic path but even yet more difficult in obscurity is the nopath of madness
no one can be ambitious in literature ones ambitious only in capitalism or madness and happenstantially expresses this ambition by writing capitalism or writing madness (madness that deambition)
i am mad as theres no place in your society to make money that is to survive and manifest my is pronounced my eyes and so to maintain my is i retreat from your society and go mad thus in your society i am mad to me and out of your society i am mad to you mad either way and each way with different laws as inquisitional christianity ensured those others were smeared with heresy so your society ensures these others are smeared with madness the educated smiling or activist progressives as complicit as any for they all have made their place in the acceptable madness the in of money as inquisitional christianity drove its mad to death so capitalism whether liberal conservative radical late or any label drives its mad
i shall continue to work to maintain until i can no longer my voice of nonparticipation or rather participation only in fleeting spaces where language and madness however ephemerally intersect
from the earliest age certainly well into the uterus i knew in various modes that my task while sentient on earth as this i is to write madness with my body of course and as words and so thinking are simply an extension of the body like breath or vision only with my body and my writing madness and avoiding the usual responsive societal clasps from incarceration and institutionalization to activism and advocacy to disability or suicide to pharmaceuticals and therapy to homelessness and collapse or at least avoiding them for a sufficiently lengthy time that i could without tedious error be said to have written madness hardly in its entirety for this would be impossible but to have written a competently full face of it however shaded and false among its infinite faces would show to what or whom is an aside madness legitimately as a spiritual and political energy that is as a body as worthy of bodiness as any other in those worlds in whose names that is bodies you frequent fight disdain adore that i detour around any definition should be expected by anyone even vaguely discerning i could tell you the names i side with the names at least that have leaked into history but i dont wish to play your games most of my people youve stolen their names their words writing their bodies we are a tribe distributed across the constructions wandering floundering haltingly gathering in lost words
how could god not become ill to discover before it its reasonable powerlessness to know madness?
forgotten words on whose omission the world is founded
to enter this omission to forage among the forgotten
how does one formulate a language which sticks in the throat collapsing before having attained any formulation? how can madness break through the universe of discourse?
i speak stickings and collapsings i dont attempt to break through but remain in uncarved universes
what forces me to write i imagine is the fear of going mad
what writing writes though is madness
the praise of folly hardly has to be written in the language of reason
the fool just must develop sufficient confidence to speak in follys idiolects
isnt it necessary that any remnant in the species who still believe in language not are users of it which is anybody but believe who are possessed by it and it lives in them must be mad for language has duplicated fragmented diffused technicized politicized prosaicized clinicized awardicized nameicized degreed pedigreed and one whom language fills is then filled to excess and this excess obliterates use and this excess madness
i have sought with minds passion and passions mind a breakdown of a certain kind of reason frequently associated in common and even many noted minds with the highest achievements of civilization why then have i deliberately sought its shattering?
as madness includes itselves and its notselves it finds itself biologically or adoptively does it matter? in mysticisms strange family that family being an eclipse and sun of god in its contradictoriness
the difference between god and us must lie not in attributes but in the very nature of our existence since each thing is what it is god must be not only what it is but also what it isnt this confuses us about who it is so the mad
of course when i say madness i may mean some thing or more likely some things or notthings perhaps depending on the time of day and what i ate or smoked for breakfast and who knows what other etiologies lurking in the vast fogs of consciousness and time but there are not two things reason which speaks and madness which doesnt there are rather appearances of many forms of reason which to some may appear as many forms of madness or reason and many forms of madness which to some may appear as many forms of reason or madness and if this isnt precise enough for you if it isnt sufficiently general or constitutive or normal or exclusionary well …
ED BY SADOO DIAPER AT 02:02 NO
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