I did go to bed early.
Whatever that means. The night
was dark, like a sewer, and turds careened through the streets without
purpose. Cinema was everywhere. And all its hideous accoutrements. I wanted to hack like a heavy smoker and run
my hands down the pants of something furry with a bottle of bourbon up my
ass. The streets. Turdcicles. Turdcycles. Made me think of double gyres of scats as a
kind of schema of history or something.
STOP trains winding down to trainy beddy bye. Oh god.
Love again. Or, rather, thoughts
of love. Or, rather rather, something
resembling a neon sign i saw in Bangkok once intimating practices sometimes
associated with love. (Though i’ve never
been to Bangkok. Or Spain. [Kissed Spain’s ass once, as it stuck it into
France when i was perusing through Whatever when i was Ambassador to Whatever. That’s true.]
That’s true.) Parenthetical
desires. Epistemological
eccentrics. Make the toilets go
round. Speaking of. Just saying.
Whatnot. What if toilets were
like carousels—pretty coloured piggies and horsies twirling in circles, oop and
down like dandelions, all for a few buckaroonis ... imagine plunking down your
ass on that! They’ve almost finished
it. The bridge. The one down to the left and over there. But they’ve been almost finishing it
forever. Like civilization but without
the Fruit Loops. We have enough humans
doing research into reason (or what’s called reason by those doing the research
into what they call reason). That’s what
the nightmare’s for. (Though nightttime
should have three teas, like The Hatter & The Hare when Halice joined them
with her chalice.) And we have enough
people going mad in the traditional way, the mad way, as compensation for
reason. I propose calm detached soothing
comprehensive vigorous investigative documented cited methodical research into
madness—which is surely nothing other than reason in a mirror, and what are
mirrors for!??!—using not reason’s methods but madness’s (madness has its
methods but they’re on different books): ([{after reducing my political commitments in the external world i find
i’ve been becoming more priapic at the keyboard ... good sign, wouldn’t you
say?}]) the (a!) problem with
psychology is it uses reason’s methods (those fearful forms) to research
madness then wonders (though it rarely wonders!) why the stats are getting
worse ... and they call them insane! (I don’t usually like emoticons, i find them
demeaning.) Isn’t that what art is? To hang reason and psychology upside down and
spank the shit out of them? To take the
cosmic dildo god and make the brain’s holes moan. Isn’t madness just the body and though we say
we love the body we just want to fuck it?
René in drag. Whatever and
whatnot. Evernot and whatwhat. Cinema and cinnabons and sin’a’ma. But now i’ve been at this long enough that
the STOP trains are going again, even the gloaming has gone, the stupid sun is
crawling up the hypodermic needle like a giant rabid testicle and everything is
normal once again.
So here it is. Seven
in the morning. Wide awake like
lemons. The soupy soup of words having
souped. Eternal night having done a dump
on its techno singing swirly throne.
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