A Redefinition of Hell
I draw on whatever aspects of my soul are
required to accomplish any task that calls to me. Once that task has stopped calling, i turn to
other tasks that call, drawing on whatever aspects of my soul that are required
to accomplish those tasks. If you get
confused—if you expect me to have a heavy soul:
unalterable, fixed, dumb, knowable—whose issue is that? Isn’t this what you do anyway but slower? You who change your mind once a decade and
view it as a fault! You who praise
diversity in your mouth and shit on it with your other! You celebrate olympic golds, you paw at the maserati,
then accuse me of speed? You stand-ovate
Hamlet then accuse me of wit? You object
to the creationists and assume darwin, then accuse me of adaptability? You celebrate madonna, then accuse me of … of?
… of! … anonymity and poverty? You
practice your yoga, then accuse me of aum?
You blab classlessness then take classes! Oh you lukewarm camels. You who are crucified on time. You who require a stage for intimacy. Have you not heard of the dance? Would you go to the hell mister wilde created
for you? Ah, dear wombats, you are
already there.
No
I’m not taking the burden of 40 years of bad
management. I’m not taking the burden of
three millennia of stupid men or the women who throw that burden at me to suit
their own stupidities. I’m not taking
the burden of christianity’s puerility or leslie who in kindergarten called me
toothpick. I’m not taking the burden of all
those who are too scared to adapt, who have ossified psyches, who talk about
god or peace or knowledge or anything as if they haven’t almost died from it, who
call fear love, who haven’t sweat entire nothingnesses over a misplaced elastic, who cover
their lust for money and comfort—what spiritual insecurity!—with rhetorics of
virtue paid for by others by their tongues and their brains and the very pit of
their love and their lives … you know … their lives. I’m not taking the burden of your lack of
voice and the burden of whoever and everyone who gave it to you, including me, i’m
not taking the burden of myself. The 51
years of bad management and whoever wrote the training manual for me or you or
the dna we’re all happily mapping&living (what’s the difference?), like michelin
or nat’lgeog or google-in-your-bedroom. Easy
blood, i call it. What we do in our cloudy cage. Living in the womb of
something else. That whipping
destiny. The face that’s waiting in the
mirror. Freedom. Sing it, liar. Sing it to the end.
No comments:
Post a Comment