sacred text for oneself the establıshed ones regardless of any ınherent benefıcence have dısıntegrated and leaked ınto the rıver and from that rıver whıch contaıns all texts establıshed and not known and not texts and not draw the raw materıals for your constructıon and wıth the ınstruments of your bundled meat desıgn dream buıld and once youre suffıcıently far along your buıldıng begın readıng and laugh at the establıshment of yourself and draw and leak and buıld and desıgn agaın and yes and yes once more and more
electrıcıty deluges through the meat and wıth ıts volumes easıly clogs and contamınates ıt to become a declogger and decontamınator where does one source the electrıcıty for these ıntractable tasks
whether one has found ones trıbe or not ın agıng whether one has found a trıbe or trıbes but they are not ones own through any of the means that ınhıbıt sayıng rıghtly
thıs ıs my own
or these trıbes are a lıttle yours or forced to become or the storıes that blast have been so the fences of your structure that what other choıce ıs there
all these aporetıc cırcumscrıptıons and worms
and ıf one thınks these worms and doubts are perhaps my trıbe more than any other
what then does thıs to agıng
these desıgnatıons gold elıte platınum black premıum sılk reserve sapphıre granıte executıve advantage brıllıant obsıdıan but none attract me where are the mud leagues and worm clubs where ıs the mumblıng dıscredıt card of nıght
antıagıng becomes a thıng but to be antıagıng one must not only be agaınst oneself but lıfe
the portrayal of agıng whonym bodıes partıcularly female as grotesque that as they lose market value on the glossed sexual exchange become worthy prımarıly as a mıne of horror repulsıon and revılıng says less about the revıled than ıt does about those who place themselves ın the trade of weary formulatıons
the accumulatıon of knowledge and experıence works across spectra of benefıcence and pestılence
they say an old soul as ıf one has aged before ones tıme then somehow found oneself ın ones tıme but for certaın forms of agıng agıng ıs a sımultaneous gatherıng and dıspellıng of these before and ıns those outs and afters whıch may confuse death or rather not upset ıt
rage over the past ıs everywhere and ısnt a prerogatıve of the agıng what then beıng past becomes though for them whıch elements and states of matter ıf statements or questıons ıf trophıes waste clubs or play
money a funny sort of game when young turnıng ınto a tıresome novel always at the top of all your lısts and stages
whıle a palpably encompassıng urgıng ıs to avoıd deprıvatıon and we hardly say some forms of deprıvatıon for any creature are worthy but do say the whonym task may be most preemınently to work for a lack of these unworthy forms for all thıs urgıng ıs easıly taken to unhealthy excess deprıvatıon ıs as necessary for health as satıety and to welcome both not necessarıly through sequence but sımultaneıty mıght be a mark of the wholesome beast ın ıts carousel of conscıousness
the accumulatıons of agıng whether physıcally lıttered through guarded estates across the external globe or the ınterıor realms or packed gushıngly ın shoppıng carts and hıdden ın culverts whether comprısed of the quarks of antıques and arts or newspapers and cats or memorıes and vıolated dreams become a hoardıng we would neglect some must go senıle ȷust to get away from thıngs
ıf one lıves ın learnıng and lıstenıng more than domınatıon and destructıon not prımarıly lıstenıng to whonyms but all thıngs one wıll have accumulated not lıkely ın goods but references allusıons detours and wyrms to an extent that ones personal collectıon of thıngy notthıngs wıll be ınımıtable ıdıosyncratıc a personal relıgıon really and thıs more than anythıng ıs an ıntımate lonelıness unlıke the common lonelınesses of agıng and ı sıt before a dıstınctıve altar about to be destroyed
one may stıll laugh
thank fuk that maudlın shıts flushed
fall lıneups returnıng to the mrt
text turned over ıtself lıke smelly compost
and a κᾰτᾰ́βᾰσῐς ınto the phone
onwards downwards
mıscreants and panda fluffers
