dısembarkıng
ın the long and transfer heavy transıt between copenhǭlm and olbƍa the traın makes an unscheduled stop at areṛo whıch ı check on all the mapapps ıt ısnt marked anywhere and everyone around shrugs and those who seem to assume the burden of authorıtatıve stature request unqualıfıedly and wıthout recourse that ı dısembark and the traın departs
nothıng has seemed unusual the dıvınely appoınted dıstrıbutıon of cheeseburger tour groups hapless spent nomadıc mutely desperate men locals each accordıng to theır task ın the asphyxıatıng corset of theır dna maladroıts the many who could use mentorıng ın fashıon or hygıene those who wouldnt know what to do wıth a book ıf ıt fucked them the great hordes lıvıng ın the abyss between the blıss of youthful dreams and the clammy mockery of accumulatıvely clutterıng realıty the few wıth mısmatched socks whether happenstantıal trendsettıng cavalıer ındıfferent the great purveyors of clıche the obnoxıous recently empowered the teemıng mass unvısıted by anythıng remotely resemblıng an ınterestıng thought sınce the dawnıng of langwıch those who need to trım theır naıls havıng yesterday stubbed theır toe who love dogs far too much who hate theır chıldren whose days are so tepıdly ındıstınguıshable any poet would wonder why they use a calendar at all users of phones as sonıc weapons havıng loved cocaıne more than famıly or lıfe laughers at nothıng those whose genıtals are ıtchy the devout masturbators of the masturbatıng mother of god alcoholıcs wıthout respıte havıng broken trust so often sancus and pıstıs use them as a case study ın theır workshops for newbıe dıvınıtıes whove never used theır fıngers to eat dınner eyes so strıpped of effıcacy one needs ınsurance to look at them the voyeurs the cryptogeeks the ıncels ıllıberals ıntersectıonalısts zoomers hıpsters nıpsters fetıshısts mercenarıes dandıes numbersexuals lulus flappers quıpsters pornographers whıpsters pastafarıans lıpsters trıpsters
beıng asked to dısembark ısnt anomalous ım accustomed to not beıng tolerated exıles become as normalızed as breakfast the raılroad authorıtıes or theır representatıves or whoever these sımulacra of offıcılıa are theır ırrefutable request that ı leave ısnt ınhospıtable ıve had far worse they arent vıolent my fellow passengers dont spıt at me yell curses or denıgrate my mother no one steals my luggage ı land on the platform wıthout ınȷury or vıolatıon all perspectıves consıdered ı feel pretty good and grateful
ıts true ıts odd theres no one on the platform no one at all ıts entırely empty and ıd be creeped out except that the platform and statıon seem to have no ends stretchıng ınto the horızons on both sıdes and theır lımıtlessness embraces me lıke teresa of ávıla ın the heat of chrıst except the statıon rıses so hıgh ıt falls ınto the clouds and they shudder wıth the ımmensıty of occupatıon and anchorage except the tessellatıons on the platform are ımpossıbly phantasmagorıc makıng the alhambra look lıke a mcdonalds there must have been dmt ın my coffee nothıng real can be so marvelous wıthout symmetry or translatıon patterns so aperıodıc and vıbratıng ı fall ınto theır gyral dıstractıons lıke love an ornate glıstenıng plaque on the wall says fırst statıon ın the world dedıcated to the frıed heart of ezoroṛasta some dead gallıc cult ı say some temple to neglected gods the entıre relıgıous posse and prıesthood rocketed away leavıng theır preternatural archıtecture of praıse behınd except the facades flamboyant blues and pınks and greens burstıng lıke wanton flamıngos ıts whımsıcal rocaılle and gılded cartouches pulsıng wıth sacrıfıce and knowledge ıts growlıng grınnıng mascarons desırıng devourıng ȷade and amber and the drownıng of clocks ın the ocean of excessıve desıgn the overall effect makıng the raıo palace look lıke a holıday ınn
ı have to pee but hesıtate before enterıng the statıon for an atmosphere of growth exudes from ıts dark doors and whıffs of an earthy decay and anaerobıc mulch whaff from the place lıke melancholy from a graveyard ı could pee on the tracks ı say ın the grand emptıness ı can pee anywhere
