3.7.18

dao de jing i

the way can be spoken of but it won’t be the constant way
the name can be named but it won’t be the constant name
the nameless was the beginning of the myriad creatures
the named was the mother of the myriad creatures
hence constantly rid yourself of desires in order to observe its subtlety
but constantly allow yourself to have desires in order to observe what it is after
these two have the same origin but differ in name
they are both called dark
darkness upon darkness
the gateway to all that is subtle

dear ones,

dao de jing is written as a text for human survival and excellence in the context of all things in a transient universe. while assembled over 22 centuries ago humans have increasingly erected a dam in its flow, afraid to live as one species among a myriad, without ascendancy, living in the spontaneity of themselves

dao de jing is a practice that includes the lost arts of anonymity, haplessness, desolation, solitude, and notknowing. it is a manual, but one that provides instructions on its own terms – morphing, combining without regard acute mysticism and political precision, interiority and exteriority, female and male, language and silence, many other seeming counterpoints, and even (quite nonchalantly) death and life

these transformations, this combining, this psychospiritual alchemy, here, in vignette one, are called dark. dao eschews light, flowing with heaviness, darkness. dao is root and root is in vermiculous earth

language – as more capriciously in the chuang tzu – is mistrusted – but only in a context that apotheosizes it, reifies, as today, to the ecstasy and necessity of communication, that experiences human relation as primary, superior. dao places things – whether names, desire, humans, language – in their place. and this place is dao. so language (now a subsidiary of that transnational conglomerate, Communication) is not some divinity, panacea, salvific exuberance and clarity, healing, but a transport (like rivers, mycelium, wind, electromagnetic field quanta). designed to carry things without prejudice, it carries, including prejudice, as prejudice is too a thing. so humans have no particular privilege and become themselves precisely as they inhabit dao’s vast flows

words – like humans, desire, things, transports – root in subtle darkness. not perhaps an ineffability, numinosity. not a knowledge outside. but also not a knowledge restricted to or predominant in visibility, scientific measure. the artificial separation of these combinings – a spiritual fission humans seem disturbingly addicted to and supercilious about – might be a fear of subtlety, the no-desire in desire, desire in no-desire

i descend from names, names from no-names. if i am ignorant of my ancestry, if i do not devote good measure to exploring my genealogies, how then can i use language with any authority – an authority that is none, for it too descends?

origins and ends, gateways and constancies – aren’t these our lives? dao neither immortalizes nor mortalizes but rather does both through the relentless relation, union, and separation of specifics

in life one hears myriad conflicting voices (in society and social media, polyphonic threads). dao does not choose but listens. and in listening includes all. and in including all negates all. and in negating chooses

so. speak human, for you must. but let your speaking be rooted and let these roots root in the wormy darkness of many, of two, of one, of nothing

dao de jing


the sadoo admires (among other reprisings) gould’s reprising, that retake at a bookend of an adult life. in the labyrinthine perambulations that present interstices to us, revisitings are like poems that show us the sun such that we have never seen the sun. we see the sun. we read the poem. we see the sun anew in the poem. we see the sun. we see the sun anew as sun. and so it goes

10 years after its first commentary on the dao de jing, sadoo diaper begins another, this time using dc lau’s revised 1982 text rather than the 1963 one. perhaps every 10 years another commentary. this might be a prayer to the voids


29.4.18

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[i], …
thisthat i that is (isnot) thatthis we (& not& notor or) they you it her him (notwe notit …)
turned to death like avocados
holding our painjoy loveblob like an ambivalently anticipated foetus
                  {so many negations}
i am not the iota and the zeta
i am an iota
                  {has this growing heap of maps made any difference?}
aside from common base animal survivalist functions which mindlessly tyrannically inform us our preservation is essential – though reason knows it isn’t and consciousness may suggest our annihilation is essential or at least more necessary than its perpetuation  – what of this species we’re cast into is worthy of continuance and can this worth (if it exists) be fostered without what has seemed to this point to be its inevitable violent and oppressive corollaries?
they go   she goes like nairobi giraffes in a tesla dream   you go to the destroyed wilderness to images of the dream and death
  world whose mute noise struts a random script
  words whose laughter hides a bloody game
  time that bit of celery stuck between some teeth
  offending doctors in a dream
but dreams (these horrors speaking grammars incompatible)
offend themselves in nests no bird would nest
what are the measures of a culture’s robustness and security?
and we (cards in shuffling decks) ourselves
seem unoffended by offense’s defense
he (but is it he?) goes too   we all with revolutionary crotches go   you go (and goes nature that woebegotten word) to dreams so old or new humans aren’t even missing
its choreography of the voices of the othervoiced?
so this is that and it is she or zeta’s death and mute the bird
or not (but who can tell?)
{science like a myth portends to tell}
{the merriment you hear is false  it is not genuine  it is empty}
that nutribullet’s waiting for me like an armistice
and visions like an outhouse being dug
the unmeasurable?

… continue in that way of uncontinuing unways of sadoo

20.4.18

almost anything was possible except of course the actual


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almost anything was possible
except of course the actual
 almost anything was possibal
except of course the actule
 almond many things were posse bulls
accept off course the acts (oh well)
 all monde money pings wore aussie bull
axe it quaff coarse free sax orwell
 awl monday monkey brings sore bossy pills
knack knicks doff horse see sex nor bell 
will one day gong for thee
            her relocation to paris was excruciating giving her a frightful memory of arriving in that grey inhumane sad city   she did not get along with her fellow students at the sorbonne – classes there were stupid antiquated abstract scandalously unsuited for lofty needs
aging   a mildly funny running longstanding joke that we humans – perhaps our chief distinction and most underused asset – have the capacity to advance subvert (this subversion of a subversion)  our (primary) task to tweak this gag that in the accumulations of time seems to permit fewer manoeuvrings requiring greater prosthetics to simulate expansions which (in their functional unrealities) engender our requirement – these imaginary adjustments in wits delirious machineries
a life – if allowed to flourish – is always unforgivable
 … taken by and large and with little change through the rhetorics of progress humanity hates humans of culture until they are dead
signs of the titanic sinking   inadequate materials preparation classism sexism greed disorganization …
                  extending with little effort to the boaty human artifice we presently bob in on unfathomable voids … unprepared disorganized fragmented -isms of every description greedy beyond all capacities clinging to any semblance of intelligence or wisdom blindly thrusting forward into alleys of icebergs we do not see so full we are of our own petty grandeur …
the centidog – surely the koreans or chinese (it must be them) should invent the ~100-legged dog if they haven’t already   close to the ground longfur nodiscernibleface (covered by hair) legs barely visible scurrying everywhere going nowhere a hybrid perfection of pethorror
  1. there are the poor students of maps
  1.    those who study in some manner of degree and definition better than poorly (or the poorly as so presented as poor in that above 1) so as to master those who study less   poor poor students
  1.      and those others   given the task of garbage   about whom we should not speak
seeming a competent assemblyline worker in an iso approved facility in knowledges sad smiling industry
 let us enter together ,love, that glottalia of dreams
after marmaladé
after verlame
after more eau
after de che vanities
after our own wurst
after all subtle colour and nervous rhythm
after the faint mixed tints
what more is possible?
after us the savage god
and
which
tasks
remain
in
these
regulated
barbarisms
we
call
civilization?
·    trace in words tracings of gods evolutions
·       trekdetour around capitalisms freeways
·       record in language geometries of sensation
·       establish an informal school of interior archivists devoted to records and artefacts of invisible factories whose business is an aestheticization of movement
·       run and hide and run from societys savage packs until trapped
·       attempt to become a passable thespian on stages of myself
·       break into a crypt of god in our citys heart to perform obscure autopsies
·       codify curricula for nonexistent disciplines and faculties
·       actively belong to no group
·       translate darkness to darkness using keyboards of light
·       unite vulgarity and purity
·     reduce use of definite articles punctuation use singularities
·       forage for beauty in vast and growing human dumps
·       avoid convention trade assets integrity skill plans morality art knowledge virtue …
·       as mobility becomes stable demobilize   as stability becomes routinized desettle
·       master addiction to everything
·       nurture unalterable circumferences
·       feed human zoo
·       further guilds of anonymitys arts
·       invent landscapes (outer spaces ghettos inner spaces infinite funhouses mycelial networks ruins and phantasmagorical collapses babelian skies …) of glottalia
·       document uncommunicatings of communication
·       anonymize namings   deculture cultures of namings