8.7.18

dao de jing ii

the whole world knows the beautiful as the beautiful and this is only the ugly
it knows the good as the good and this is indeed the bad
something and nothing producing each other
the difficult and the easy complementing each other
the long and the short offsetting each other
the high and the low filling out each other
note and sound harmonizing with each other
before and after following each other
these are in accordance with what is constant
hence the sage dwells in the deed that consists in taking no action and practices the teaching that uses no words
it makes the myriad creatures without being their initiator
it benefits them without exacting any gratitude for this
it accomplishes its task without claiming any merit for this
it is because it lays claim to no merit that its merit never deserts it

dear twos,

as nature – now animate only as use and sentiment, raw material for stories and human aggrandizement, whether in the manufactured forests of the dead wilderness or the pedicured sexiness of the homo sapiens fleshed ecosystems: a critical aspect, as erect penises and wet vaginas in namesake pornography, in the international conglomerate of that much larger necessitated pornographic environment in which we now all breathe and participate – is remote to the point of abolition, as perhaps art is becoming, so may be dao

what dao would think of this – being given to shadowy presences, murkiness, namelessness, and root – who would assume to know? for even this commentary is a reflection of shadows of shadows and we claim at most (though we do not claim even this) an attempted transcription of the smoke of notknowing as it rises from dark and untraceable fires into the vast farnear unreliable orbits of words around infinite nonexistent centers

much is said of balance in the sacred blather of the day. but dao takes it to levels of discomfort that could, without rare mitigation, easily consume. for the people live devoting much of their predictable lives to practices of offsetting that they euphemize as balance and the bulk accepts the euphemisms as they do, for nonacceptance implies modifications who would want (other than in fact many of the myriad creatures)?

we have something and nothing. difficult and easy. before and after. high and low. and the list could go on far beyond what is listed, as lists can. and isn’t society the struggle to hoard as much easy, high, and something to oneself while offsetting as much difficult, nothing, and low to others? and this very tendency, so endemic to humans, a core stupidity? and balance in the annals of polite and commonplace discourse a virtued concept to launder what is now an acceptable pandemic? perhaps not. but why would we not include these as possibilities as viable as those others so dominant and ubiquitous? (surely little so far of conventional thought and practice is working, other than in a technical-unto-death kind of way)

but who among us could escape the elements of this offsetting in a rabidly blabbing world? and dao if anything might be remnantly here not for escape or even offsetting but as a dark technique of reorienting to these elements

in an increasingly homogenous culture that seduces even diversity into its gargantuan bed, volition and communication are at or near the apex of today’s (as always) slavebuilt pyramids. what then do we do with a text not only in a world of image but one that points to practices of nonaction and nonspeaking, not as cowardices, retreats, passivities, indolences, but as something else, a something else we can hardly name not simply because of its elusive nature in linguistic and semantic realms but as our addiction to our pornographic environment (this severing called balance) is unacknowledged

these something elses are not places to vacationally, retreatedly, yogaclassly visit but the places where the sage dwells – her home and family apart from yet in the pornography of the world. an oldnew nature. a dao

and you can think if you wish that the citizened productive family, owning home and smiles and civilities, producers and appreciators of good policies and procedures, is our societal mainstay, our regulated levee against the disorders and nights of nature, art, dao. and from a certain (pornographic) perspective, this is not untrue. but the beautiful is only the ugly and good the bad – not in that stupid way the nazis interpreted nietzsches insights, still so prosaically common when the masses encounter intelligent doubt – but in the way of dao, this way of ways, which, lost like nature, as maybe it must be, brings the empire, the myriad creatures, ruthlessness and benevolence, the family and the hermit, the tree and the hadron collider, disgrace and honour … all these irreconcilable things … into the empire of the soul, thisthat plural singularity, and there … daos them

3.7.18

dao de jing i

the way can be spoken of but it won’t be the constant way
the name can be named but it won’t be the constant name
the nameless was the beginning of the myriad creatures
the named was the mother of the myriad creatures
hence constantly rid yourself of desires in order to observe its subtlety
but constantly allow yourself to have desires in order to observe what it is after
these two have the same origin but differ in name
they are both called dark
darkness upon darkness
the gateway to all that is subtle

dear ones,

dao de jing is written as a text for human survival and excellence in the context of all things in a transient universe. while assembled over 22 centuries ago humans have increasingly erected a dam in its flow, afraid to live as one species among a myriad, without ascendancy, living in the spontaneity of themselves

dao de jing is a practice that includes the lost arts of anonymity, haplessness, desolation, solitude, and notknowing. it is a manual, but one that provides instructions on its own terms – morphing, combining without regard acute mysticism and political precision, interiority and exteriority, female and male, language and silence, many other seeming counterpoints, and even (quite nonchalantly) death and life

these transformations, this combining, this psychospiritual alchemy, here, in vignette one, are called dark. dao eschews light, flowing with heaviness, darkness. dao is root and root is in vermiculous earth

language – as more capriciously in the chuang tzu – is mistrusted – but only in a context that apotheosizes it, reifies, as today, to the ecstasy and necessity of communication, that experiences human relation as primary, superior. dao places things – whether names, desire, humans, language – in their place. and this place is dao. so language (now a subsidiary of that transnational conglomerate, Communication) is not some divinity, panacea, salvific exuberance and clarity, healing, but a transport (like rivers, mycelium, wind, electromagnetic field quanta). designed to carry things without prejudice, it carries, including prejudice, as prejudice is too a thing. so humans have no particular privilege and become themselves precisely as they inhabit dao’s vast flows

words – like humans, desire, things, transports – root in subtle darkness. not perhaps an ineffability, numinosity. not a knowledge outside. but also not a knowledge restricted to or predominant in visibility, scientific measure. the artificial separation of these combinings – a spiritual fission humans seem disturbingly addicted to and supercilious about – might be a fear of subtlety, the no-desire in desire, desire in no-desire

i descend from names, names from no-names. if i am ignorant of my ancestry, if i do not devote good measure to exploring my genealogies, how then can i use language with any authority – an authority that is none, for it too descends?

origins and ends, gateways and constancies – aren’t these our lives? dao neither immortalizes nor mortalizes but rather does both through the relentless relation, union, and separation of specifics

in life one hears myriad conflicting voices (in society and social media, polyphonic threads). dao does not choose but listens. and in listening includes all. and in including all negates all. and in negating chooses

so. speak human, for you must. but let your speaking be rooted and let these roots root in the wormy darkness of many, of two, of one, of nothing

dao de jing


the sadoo admires (among other reprisings) gould’s reprising, that retake at a bookend of an adult life. in the labyrinthine perambulations that present interstices to us, revisitings are like poems that show us the sun such that we have never seen the sun. we see the sun. we read the poem. we see the sun anew in the poem. we see the sun. we see the sun anew as sun. and so it goes

10 years after its first commentary on the dao de jing, sadoo diaper begins another, this time using dc lau’s revised 1982 text rather than the 1963 one. perhaps every 10 years another commentary. this might be a prayer to the voids


29.4.18

!--[if gte mso 9]> 0 0 1 285 1631 janus inc corp esq 13 3 1913 14.0 {![endif]--


[i], …
thisthat i that is (isnot) thatthis we (& not& notor or) they you it her him (notwe notit …)
turned to death like avocados
holding our painjoy loveblob like an ambivalently anticipated foetus
                  {so many negations}
i am not the iota and the zeta
i am an iota
                  {has this growing heap of maps made any difference?}
aside from common base animal survivalist functions which mindlessly tyrannically inform us our preservation is essential – though reason knows it isn’t and consciousness may suggest our annihilation is essential or at least more necessary than its perpetuation  – what of this species we’re cast into is worthy of continuance and can this worth (if it exists) be fostered without what has seemed to this point to be its inevitable violent and oppressive corollaries?
they go   she goes like nairobi giraffes in a tesla dream   you go to the destroyed wilderness to images of the dream and death
  world whose mute noise struts a random script
  words whose laughter hides a bloody game
  time that bit of celery stuck between some teeth
  offending doctors in a dream
but dreams (these horrors speaking grammars incompatible)
offend themselves in nests no bird would nest
what are the measures of a culture’s robustness and security?
and we (cards in shuffling decks) ourselves
seem unoffended by offense’s defense
he (but is it he?) goes too   we all with revolutionary crotches go   you go (and goes nature that woebegotten word) to dreams so old or new humans aren’t even missing
its choreography of the voices of the othervoiced?
so this is that and it is she or zeta’s death and mute the bird
or not (but who can tell?)
{science like a myth portends to tell}
{the merriment you hear is false  it is not genuine  it is empty}
that nutribullet’s waiting for me like an armistice
and visions like an outhouse being dug
the unmeasurable?

… continue in that way of uncontinuing unways of sadoo

20.4.18

almost anything was possible except of course the actual


-->
almost anything was possible
except of course the actual
 almost anything was possibal
except of course the actule
 almond many things were posse bulls
accept off course the acts (oh well)
 all monde money pings wore aussie bull
axe it quaff coarse free sax orwell
 awl monday monkey brings sore bossy pills
knack knicks doff horse see sex nor bell 
will one day gong for thee
            her relocation to paris was excruciating giving her a frightful memory of arriving in that grey inhumane sad city   she did not get along with her fellow students at the sorbonne – classes there were stupid antiquated abstract scandalously unsuited for lofty needs
aging   a mildly funny running longstanding joke that we humans – perhaps our chief distinction and most underused asset – have the capacity to advance subvert (this subversion of a subversion)  our (primary) task to tweak this gag that in the accumulations of time seems to permit fewer manoeuvrings requiring greater prosthetics to simulate expansions which (in their functional unrealities) engender our requirement – these imaginary adjustments in wits delirious machineries
a life – if allowed to flourish – is always unforgivable
 … taken by and large and with little change through the rhetorics of progress humanity hates humans of culture until they are dead
signs of the titanic sinking   inadequate materials preparation classism sexism greed disorganization …
                  extending with little effort to the boaty human artifice we presently bob in on unfathomable voids … unprepared disorganized fragmented -isms of every description greedy beyond all capacities clinging to any semblance of intelligence or wisdom blindly thrusting forward into alleys of icebergs we do not see so full we are of our own petty grandeur …
the centidog – surely the koreans or chinese (it must be them) should invent the ~100-legged dog if they haven’t already   close to the ground longfur nodiscernibleface (covered by hair) legs barely visible scurrying everywhere going nowhere a hybrid perfection of pethorror
  1. there are the poor students of maps
  1.    those who study in some manner of degree and definition better than poorly (or the poorly as so presented as poor in that above 1) so as to master those who study less   poor poor students
  1.      and those others   given the task of garbage   about whom we should not speak
seeming a competent assemblyline worker in an iso approved facility in knowledges sad smiling industry
 let us enter together ,love, that glottalia of dreams
after marmaladé
after verlame
after more eau
after de che vanities
after our own wurst
after all subtle colour and nervous rhythm
after the faint mixed tints
what more is possible?
after us the savage god
and
which
tasks
remain
in
these
regulated
barbarisms
we
call
civilization?
·    trace in words tracings of gods evolutions
·       trekdetour around capitalisms freeways
·       record in language geometries of sensation
·       establish an informal school of interior archivists devoted to records and artefacts of invisible factories whose business is an aestheticization of movement
·       run and hide and run from societys savage packs until trapped
·       attempt to become a passable thespian on stages of myself
·       break into a crypt of god in our citys heart to perform obscure autopsies
·       codify curricula for nonexistent disciplines and faculties
·       actively belong to no group
·       translate darkness to darkness using keyboards of light
·       unite vulgarity and purity
·     reduce use of definite articles punctuation use singularities
·       forage for beauty in vast and growing human dumps
·       avoid convention trade assets integrity skill plans morality art knowledge virtue …
·       as mobility becomes stable demobilize   as stability becomes routinized desettle
·       master addiction to everything
·       nurture unalterable circumferences
·       feed human zoo
·       further guilds of anonymitys arts
·       invent landscapes (outer spaces ghettos inner spaces infinite funhouses mycelial networks ruins and phantasmagorical collapses babelian skies …) of glottalia
·       document uncommunicatings of communication
·       anonymize namings   deculture cultures of namings