1.2.23

of a cluneal cleft of a mıddlıng secateur


or


एकटामध्यमवर्गीयसेकेटरकेक्लूनियादरार


book  lost ın the ecstatıc despaırıng hoardıng cluttered scream of the hıstorıcal present  contınues drıbblıng ıts coded ıncantatıons ınto the ears of dead flowers and the chemıcal lunacy of bears


theory  whether crıtıcal speculatıve analytıcal performance scatterıng case value polıtıcal deformatıon systems queer chemıosmotıc queueıng multıverse lıterary chaos proof scıentıfıc  ıs a subset of poetry  whıch ıs merely an ınstance of the ımpossıbılıty of theory


wıth meanıng gone  langwıch  eye understand to mean ın the kındtıme  as a sort of mean but not between extremes  some ıntermedıary of other qualıtıes or quantıtıes  and certaınly not a commons where alterıty can brıefly thınk ıts lost ıtself  but a volatıle exchange of mad transmutatıons ımmune from ımmutabılıty  where whonyms can go to lısten to the sounds of elemental flows that the cıty has been erected to ınhıbıt


gender renders tradıtıonal polıtıcs anachronıstıc  analogous to the closeted 0 that broke the Wests Chrıstıan back as ıt slıpped from the door ajarred by cumulatıve fear  gender flows from the unswept underbellıes of beds and the hardly trackable wınds of ıdentıty  ınto the marbled nomospheres of law and begıns that ancıent work of dust of whıch ıts an accomplıshed member


that technology stalks whonymıtys less ıts most potent traıt than ıts usurpatıon of the functıons of ırrealıty  dımınıshıng capacıty for conscıousness even as the specıes proclaıms wıth ever ıncreasıng ferocıty ıts prerogatıve of power and knowledge


the truısm that technology ıs our house  a face of αληθεια and even ıts truest face ın the torrent of currents  that natures just artıfıce and has been even from before the womb of those ostensıble sapıens  that beıng ıs seemıng or at least seems to be  as a narratıve pıece that fıts ınto an uncompletable puzzle that a myrıad actıvısts are zealously attemptıng to assemble though ıts scope and mystery grow wıth each addıtıon  cant be untrue  for whats falsıty ın the gameroom of ınfınıte puzzlıngs  but of those parallel homes  seen sometımes ın the malfunctıons and crevıces  sepulchres and asylums  abattoırs and absences  what of those ın the whıteness of the nıght


to gender ıs to thınk but not ın any of those thıck hıgh dıggerıan ways  of the kontınental kaucasıan kocks and those who would be lıke them or at least theır effects and affects  theır versteckenvergendeckensıchverstellenhüllenweıgenhehlen wurldbloxnclunks  but to thınk as water and settle where none would lıke to be


langwıch doesnt sımply faıl as soon as ıt trıes to step outsıde ıts regulated utılıtıes  as ıt moves ınto realms of unıntentıons deproductıvıtıes affıxrealısms  the gaze falterıng as ıt stumbles ın debrıs of meanıng  but collapses ınto ıtself ın entırely new ways that only those whove transıted to the death of poetry can read


theorys play ın a corner of ımagınatıons boundaryless desert and whod clıng to any sandcastle knowıng anythıng of the meteorologıes of voıd


ın the ends  the begınnıngs  ın the mıddles  book   a caesura among caesurae  a raısıng a cuttıng down of words


and what ı mean by madness ıs nothıng of your clınıcal hıerarchıes and expert spaces forceful camısoles of noncontradıctıon we may be grounds for certıfıable ınsanıty through the nudıty of trıvıalısmıty syādvāda the old thıngs


and what ı mean by madness seems

one hundred thousand hours of wrıtıng madness and any expertıse


and what ı mean by madness seems a repeatıng retreatıng returnıng rerrheaıng redeathıng rerunnıng redreamıng renegıng thıs relaxıng of mınd ınto the dıffıcult soft dıscıplıne of vast

qıṣaṣ alanbıyāʾs adjuvant verfremdungs


ı speak wıthout a head wıth a decognıtızed braın everythıngs enfolded ı read somewhere that a lıeutenants places on the left a generals on the rıght ım a neınstar general a nınescar generalıst so ı place thıngs on the rıght ı realıze thıs may mean the thıngs are generals not me but why dıstınguısh between thıngs & ı thıs ısnt how the dead behave thı and ıngs come home and unpack the pack the knıfe there a fınger here there the bugdrag here the moıled santıes old mcdeaddead has a pharm ı wıthdraw the goods and place them on the rıght thıs a path to enfoldedment ıts not that you talk to your avocados ıts when your avocados talk to you but no ıts when they dont everythıng talks and ıf youre not lıstenıng whose fault ıs that sure before and after follow each other and ıf you go far enough west ıts east these are all basıc prıncıples of geometry so rıght after a tıme becomes left and you can play that game put everythıng on the left ın the lıeutenants spot and go the dıstance so ıts on the rıght ıts all a burlesqogna donut


all the dead are ıs flow

my houses a forest

walkıng through eyes of nıght

breathe ın lungs of ıts spaces

roots of anımals but no anımals

ın walkıng breathıng

here

lose anımalıty

become a spore

nıght bırths all thıngs

words dıssolve ınto shadows theır ancıent home

tıme becomes the nothıng that ıs

dawn less dread than ımpossıbılıty

lıghts everywhere

whats seen ısnt whıspered recorded

seen then passes through

seeıng and shadow breathıng walkıng all are nıght

my house not my house

a forest

books are dısastrous no one tells you thıs


exıles a way to change the nature of fıctıon a form of therapy a way to sımulate relatıons of bıo thanato hagıo takıng the exıled from places of dıstınct substance of the stuff of purchasable surveıllable maps to wısps of names wallless homes of ınsıde where everythıngs defecatıon no latlong here ın uncountably dımensıoned spheres rather than tellıng storıes provıdes roots from whıch storıes grow ecologıes of murk mycelıa of mulch & doubt exıle can be done anywhere placeless ıt pretends at utopıa ıt can be done anytıme pulled out of your pocket lıke an heırloom watch transportable lıke household garbage or anomıe that an anagram of exıles ex lıe doesnt mean anythıng ıf ones saıd to have subsequently faded from publıc ınterest or even ınterest ıs one exıled lıke the dead but what then the lıvıng ın theır defınıteness the grand stupıdıty of the blabbıng vertıcals ın theır reputable place

30.11.22

坐忘


whats it talking about


communication


doesnt seem like communication


its ironic


i dont get it


its practising fana


its not sufi its not even muslim


a kind of paramuslim fana


thats not fana anymore


its ironic


is it making fun of us


i think its making fun of itself


i dont think it likes us


its more that its been eaten by the game


i dont get it


the fana game


like the dead are past liking and unliking


or the ironically dead cant tell what they like because everything constantly cycles through being tasty and being nauseous so the two cant be fathomed and become confused and are experienced as one


so why does it even bother talking


the living part of it cant help itself 


but the dead part of it wants to stop


the dead part of it and the living part of it subvert each other and maybe this mutual subversion is what talks


is that why it doesnt make any sense


it might make sense if you apply a different grammar


how am i supposed to do that


practice ironic fana


but you said it was about communication


it is dont you see 


no


the essential problem of communication is alterity and what greater alterity is there than death


but doesnt ironic death negate that


irony simultaneously negates and affirms which is what makes it irony


sometimes dont you just long for the simple things


like a box of cheerios


no


what are the simple things


i dont know anymore


lets just sit and forget


and ride the transformational thoroughfare to darkness obscurity and chaos


i dont know about that


lets just sit and forget

29.11.22

imbrued imbroglio


a gap opens between the mad who are prey to a kind of infinite intransmissible knowledge and the sane those who come from another world clean established networked secure whose ignorance is enormous as if they belong to different species they can no longer understand each other or share the same values or references


ive known the happiness of nearly dying long before i die and so my living has been my death and we write manuals with our meat on strategies and tactics for coping with this unsanctioned arrangement


ironys a child of the nearfar copulations of the living and the dead 


fear breeds anger and anger suffering

etiology breeds dogma and dogma suffering

injustice breeds anger and anger oblivion

anger breeds art and art unsuffering

fear breeds irony and irony peace

sex breeds sex and sex sex


whats denied returns but almost everything must be denied excluded so almost everything returns

watch as the other infiltrates you so massively theres no room left for what you think is you


despairs to lose speed slow down abdicate success and wealth

hopes in speed

another kind of hope in despair

choose despair my friend

its the only hope


narrative collapse more nutritious than narrative integrity

inconsistency more integral than consistency


the ethical models you seek cant be found not because they dont exist but as anyone with the required attributess effectively unfindable out of media out of position out of name theyve retreated or never entered not from ignorance but disinclination and the kind of consciousness thats innately and pervasively wary of the crowd and its comprehensive obligations


having been confronted with our alterity were now responsible to death

weve already lived our death and now whats there to do

nothing she says why would such a one want to do anything or even have the capacity after a certain point one just doesnt believe in action anymore

and yet being dead and yet in meat requires action at least to eat and defecate and there is the mind running around like it does like a tiger thats somehow found its way into your basement

just be swept along like a corpse in the ganga or a deer in a wildfire thats all thats required of you now

a responsibility more taxing than those i once had among the living

for what more demanding job is there than the mirror


writings born from a necessity of withdrawal and an equal necessity of engagement one writes to find a way out of the dilemma and the writing made as it is of language slowly places the confused one on its side the side of withdrawal and by the time the writing one realizes where they are and that the dilemmas been resolved its too late ones there engagement has become as possible as marshmallow planets and motile mountains


oh clever writing far cleverer than any who enter you

26.11.22

diap & fukk return to novel after not really ever having left


in 1203 in sardinia madona myrrhea domina mycelia muff takes a wrong turn at the countless circle of trencher and finds themselfs forthwith in a turret of countess deipnosophistia whose tables set once daily at nineteen hundred oh one and thirteen minutes prior muffs door opens and shes donned the textiles laid fresh at nones and descends the sixhundredandsixtysix stairs to the candled gastronomatory and there at the ossiferous mensa twentytwo metres from chair to chair apart hostess and guest dine but do not speak and even if they would who could understand in that cavernous farness and in the subsequence in the fuddledum the noble countess follows muff to that high and lonely bartisan that serves now as what might be deemed a home and there still wordless as a defaced tesseract she esteemed and loaded as slowly as a blackcaiman dedons what was once laid fresh and on that échauguette muffs muff and these are the nights and days of madona mycelia and so is the fate of the circle of trencher


hard to stay away from the whonym action


novels our only freedom


a tenebrous freedom


our autothanatographical practice and so our way and virtue


we refer unreaders to our many past and future musings on autobiothanatohagiographies


autothanatography despite any radical transgressive claims must remain a script of the living


yet the living whove died and die again and daily yet remain alive are both dead and living and they draw from their deaths to bring the syntax of death into the hard conventions of the living and there present them however filtered they must be to manifest at all and so ickidemicks and skullars in saying in their ratiocinated rational reason that autothanatography can only be a living thing give precedence to biodeath and blind themselves to the manifold other deaths and in this reveal their meat monism and egging bifurcations


so novels basically mud murmurs


a linguistic predicament yes


an irony of ironies


posthumous memoirs


an indeterminate indeterminability


a community displacement


a postlogue to a mythologue to a prologue to an idealogue to a nonologue 


to write novel we enter death with everything but our meat and there let novel enter that which is in our meat but has come outside it and we bring this back to our meat in what you call life and let it speak and this is why we cant quite figure out the title


not time travel and wormholes but deathholes and death travel


not to suicide or voyeur death not visit death as a tourist but pilgrim


novels a travelogue about our pilgrimages to death


scarcely very little on not quite nothing 


not my vigilance but death itself that watches and writes


yet sadoos actually a novel of great hope


death


despair


the hope of despair


despair just means to remove speed and advancement and so to place ourselves in despairs to place ourselves in novel rather than speed


its written among the miko of the shrine of patanus and sometimes said that when the metric multiple unit prefixes officially reach thirteen it shall be as the nine billion names of god and the stars will die and all life end


remember the other quectoaufhebung we were in the cemetery on the outskirts of sine quibus non and a supine trope ambled to us irremissively and the epitaph facing us balked at itself giving way at the foot of its headstone to that antiquated stairwell and voices like lost vows of the infinite hanging in silver mists and we look at each other like those poster toads incilius periglenes in silvagenitus and why not why not and we go down


to be continued

fukk & diap return to novel after not really ever having left



so fukk hows novel going 


its a tsunami of consciousness


in the age of excess stupidity and apocalypse streams dont do it


isnt every age stupid excessive and apocalyptic


stupid yes excessive yes but were excessively excessive of excess which makes other ages look restrained and apocalyptic not really 


everyones mad


women should be mad blacks should be mad whites shouldnt be mad unless theyre moby dick the insane should be mad but theyre too busy being insane the old should be mad but dont realize it the poor should be mad but are too busy working at kfc and walmart all the time nonwhonyms should be mad and they are theyre furious but we dont realize it because we dont know how to listen to their different languages and thats what novels about their legitimate fury


except for rich pet dogs and cats


hamsters alligators budgerigars chinchillas mice geckos ferrets tarantulas snails


what if a whites poor old insane and a bear


they should be mad too


what if a blacks rich young sane and not a bear


no ones sane


isnt novel sane at least in the sense its so insane it comes full circle


like before and after follow each other


still called covida


thats what its really about what its called


thought it was about the legitimate fury of nonwhonyms


its about everything


everything all at once all the time


thats too much


are we in it


we come and go


like superyachts in rising tides


like superbots in devising biocides


who are the real protagonists


puns


puns and words and voids and turds


what about people you cant sell this unless you include people


puns are people


puns arent people


arent you just anthropomorphizing puns


they dont have legs homes scooters and cute little noses


youre calling them protagonists


if were serious about collapsing whonym supremacy novel has to go there


there


into the dark insane places


of removing the burden of whonym enterprise


simply experimenting with more fragments and styles with people at the centre of action doesnt go there


arent we people


im a pun


a pun from patanus


are aidesmémoire novels then




yes


carrot peel



yes


a penguin


definitely


weve said all this before its not whether sadoos a


so its called sadoo


whether sadoos a novel or not whether its good or bad acclaimed or ignored sane or insane


whats it a matter of


its not


that its nots a key selling point


but it cant be sold


thats also a key selling point


theres no point no sales no key


novel


lets return to our returning to novel


thought we were there


hows it going


were pleased fukk look were progressing and progresss what its all about


thought it was all about desupremacing the whonym


thats progress


looks like regress but feels like progress


or the other way around


the point is though


the points a circle 


the circles a sphincter


why do you have to be so scatological isnt that infantile wont that turn unreaders off


where the word is so the turd


pun has placed its scansion in the place of decrement


ildiam hustler fates


crazy novel talks with the grogshop


hyperlitpuneraturing will get you nowhere


where we want to be


where we are


you advocate all this slowingdown retreating regressing returning so isnt the tsunamiization of novel the wrong approach


to be continued