if i werent novel id be out with all the losers perverting government buildings and abattoiring abattoir executives but as all i need to refrain from joining them is my own country that you cant enter ie in gin wolfs phrase a doom of my own some heat and booze and light and food and booze and ive got that now i dont have to feel suicidalgenocidal all the time and instead get out soul in language which is where soul was in the first place anyway novel
its not that i believe in anarchy or not that i believe in it more or less than anything else and violence is so second millennium but if we were the species i want us to be id believe in anarchy more than anything else and probably only in anarchy heres a thing about anarchy i used to know someone who always said heres the thing about ________ and i always used to think the thing? and sometimes the thing? and occasionally the thing and the thing? theres no the thing there may be nothing but theres no thething how among all the infinite things does one pick out one thing and say the thing? and we havent even talked about about i used to look at him yap and just wait for the thethings and if i really needed to stop from laughing id count them because everyone knows the thing about counting is that its not funny anyway heres a thing about anarchy anarchys about notthething there is no thething in anarchy there are just many even infinite things anarchy as everyone knows is without rule but also as everyone knows which is a really stupid phrase and i hope i stop using it because who knows what everyone knows or what one and every and know even mean? you cant really have withoutrule but you can simulate it by swapping around the rulership so frequently like a few times every few minutes that theres effectively no ruler in this sense the world has always been and cannot help but always be anarchic theres the ruler of sadooickstan eg but sadooickstans ruled by novelostan and iistan and iistans ruled by voidystan and voidystan by sadooickstan and sadooickstan by its cat and i whos ostensible ruler of iistans ruled by the question of what really rules which in turns ruled by questions which are ruled by nothing which is ruled by a varda so you see how it goes the whonyms who believe in democracy and tyranny and pooigarchy and theocracy are nuts anarchy is the only operation and as this thought scares us we dont really talk about it
my alienations my intelligence
i become smart through your savage hostilities
