a lesson in jurisprudence

olafa routinely walks the gasnil hill trail in her matryoshka suspenders. the trail is listed as difficult by the authorities although according to olafa’s experience and compared to the world’s difficult trails it is quite easy. what can occasionally make it difficult – and in fact impassable without specialized equipment and training – is some presence (in combination or alone) of high winds (gusts of >70 – 80km/hr) or ice (most notably in trail sections that descend rapidly on one side to the ocean and on the other side rise rapidly). deep snow – while making passage challenging – does not make it impassable. low temperatures in themselves only of course require proper layering of proper clothing

olafa likes to walk the gasnil hill trail in her suspenders a solid three times a week, every second day if possible. she does this in november and december until precipitation and low temperatures make the trail impassable without specialized equipment and training, which olafa doesn’t have and isn’t particularly interested in obtaining. only once does she consider not completing the trail due to ice in a narrow steeply-cliffed section but manages to find some safe stepping spots to navigate the danger. there is some risk of falling to her death but she feels this is minimal and olafa has sufficient experience and body knowledge to justly consider her judgement reasonable in such situations

olafa has to leave the small city of heresiarch ooQ for a time but returns in late january, at which point the conditions cooperate to allow her to walk the trail twice in her first week. a few minor obstacles but never to the point as before where she considers not completing the trail. when she goes to walk gasnil hill trail in the small city of heresiarch ooQ the third time in the new year she encounters at the trail’s lower outset a barrier and a new sign, the latter not simply warning of steep cliffs and difficult passage as the other signs do but of winter closure, with legal language telling the walker she assumes all risk and responsibility absolutely

as if i didn’t before says olafa. but the day and conditions are better than that one day i considered not completing the trail. indeed, while not as good as the best days they’re better than the 3 or 4 slightly challenging days. i will walk the trail. and she climbs over the barrier and laughs at the serious legal language and walks and has a delightful time and the ocean is like the golden hair of the gods and the sky as the tawny belly of the ancient great bird roc and the land like the sleepy genitalia of a once loved lover and the sun, though shy behind a great orgy of clouds, like a wondrous vast rube goldberg machine made entirely of a single act of blown coloured glass, elaborately whirring and confusing and deviously complicated, a weltmaschine, a kinetic art installation hung from the heaven we pride ourselves in having slaughtered, a veeblefetzer, auspicious and doomed

next: a lesson in jurisprudence ii

some notes that could be deemed philosophical

final exam essay portion

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final exam

essay portion

choose between the following one situation to respond to. write precisely 298,935,000 words, using no glyphs other than what are contained in whatever your alphabet or logogram system is. write in black india ink or blood on handcrafted tessellated polyptychs composed from pencil crayons, cardboard, paperclips, fuzzy yellow spheres measuring no more than 0.81cm in diameter at their greatest point including fuzz, and pencils

in the beginning olafa believed. which meant accepted. then she disbelieved but it didn’t matter too much because she was young and wasn’t taken seriously. then olafa was able to suspend disbelief to an extent of functioning in your land. which meant she worked and was respected sufficiently and had friends or simulations of friends. then olafa was only able to suspend as a thought experiment but not as any sort of reality that propelled her body into action. then the experts in your land proclaimed her depressed or mad or schizoid or borderline or mentally ill or some or all of the above or more and prodded her with pills and talk but olafa instead of playing your games pitched the tent of herself more fully in her suspensions and she did not work according to your measures and she was not respected in your lands and she was alone. did olafa now believe, believe differently, believe in her suspensions, disbelieve? would she soon disbelieve in her suspensions and where would this leave her? what do you know about olafa’s believing, disbelieving, suspending, pitching, your land, her land? how do you know this?

not not jokes for a not age

not not

who’s there?

not not

not not who?

not not not

an affair with frances yates

while there may not be any outsides  and isnt this knowledge the truth of esotaticism  there are many insides  seemingly infinite  and some of these speak  however falsely  of outsides

but all there are are outsides

i dont speak of those outsides  i speak of the other ones

there is no esotaticism  esotericism itself is just a recent invention and doesnt exist other than as a forced unity in the minds of a few scholars  so if esotericisms a fiction esotaticisms a fiction of a fiction

i have proof for you

what proof

a song

a song isnt a proof

all a song is is a proof

many once upon a times ago

a sorcerer called urmario

lost in a uruguayan barrio

ate a magic radicchio

and went his merry wayio

thats not a proof or a song

everythings a song or a proof  and most things are both

im not a song or a proof

if theres no esotericism theres also no exotericism or exotaticism  all thered be would be the notwithin and notwithout  and what is that space

a proof or a song

the important thing to remember here is that nothing cleans your kitchen counters like minute maid

if medieval heretics werent being killed for science but for something else  what does that tell us

it tells us that that something else still exists

because we cant name it?

didnt she name it?

how could she name something that cant be named  whose remoteness she couldnt eliminate?

she did

she didnt

she did and didnt

all we ever do

is do and dont

id like to make a case for myself being an adept

ill let you make a case for yourself being a case

id like to adopt an adept to adapt an apt ad to opt an upped id  

you dont want to be an ipsissimus or magusaronimo

not that kind of adept  i want to be a transcendent  a hagiography

a genetian saint?

venetians are blind  tourism & cameras obliterate vision

the more senses youre lacking the more chance you have

a xian  an immortal  a 仙

youll burn

ill escape by means of a simulated corpse

only in your texts

you mean reality?

a proper xians rooted in the earth not texts

the earths supported by a text and a text a text

its texts all the way down

speaking of  im working on a bunch of polyptyxts

sounds carcinogenic

some of the materials are toxic

you mean polyptychs with text

i mean thwarted tessellated polyptychs with text   polyptyxts

does esotericism become esotaticism when its hermetism is hermed

whats the difference between biking and a bikini

a third eye

youve read 101 occult jokes to make you levitate too

whats going on here is that the urge to hagiographize is a textual one

do you largely agree with the statement that as everything gets distorted  sect becomes church  passion becomes marriage  enthusiasm becomes scepticism  curiosity becomes comfort  xian becomes dexianed

neither of us believe in immortality  enlightenment  magic  ideals  saints

which is exactly why we believe in them

do dont

did didnt

doo dao

a xian is one who doesnt xian

holiness is full of holes

holiness is a hole

there is nothing to pursue

other than texts

which is why i want to be adept

but youre so inadept

i want to be an inadept

i think youre there

look ma  no pursuits

you want to be in an inadept

doesnt ga hung say you must fuck a lot to be in an inadept?

go hung says a lot

and its all just textual

hagiographical

so here we are outside and inside  singing and notsinging  proving and disproving

sainting and notsainting  texting and nottexting  fucking and notfucking

but they still will burn you

some things never change

whats the word for that?

fire?

dao?

texts?

仙?