20.7.18

dao de jing v


heaven and earth are ruthless; they treat the myriad creatures as straw dogs
the sage is ruthless; she treats the people as straw dogs
is not the space between heaven and earth like a bellows?
it is empty without being exhausted
the more it works the more comes out
to hear much will lead only to a dead end
better to hold fast to what is within

dear fives,

in contrast to reward and punishment mythologies, moralities of good and evil … in contrast to any sentimental gods or god who assume goodness, compassion, love – offsetting cruelty, hate, malice to other forces … in contrast to the childish capricious powers of many – forceful infants of the heavens …  shrugging at ideas of benevolence and ritualistic conformity (whether the rites are prescribed institutionally or in the heave of society), dao doesn’t even posit a god (or at least a god more than a common tansy or brinjal masala). here are heaven and earth – the way of dark virtue and the way of simian prescribed rites – the people, the sage

the sage, who is later dismissed as unworthy and risible. the people, who are routinely presented as a pulsing conglomerate of necessary followers. the impossible way of heaven. the pervasively enforced expectations of earth

here heaven, earth, and sages form a strange alliance, of which the people are not a part, contractually bound by ancient models to a dna of indifference. the people though get excited or discouraged by constructions of amorality, immorality, blood and barbarism, difference, the vestments and scripts of hierarchical power and status, their passions expressed in moral systems, tedious schadenfreude and its organized siblings (government and war), integrity and transgression

and what is this indifference  – detachment or fate or enlightenment or geometry or discernment or silence or intelligence or something else or puerility?  – a magnificent disdain for the mores of a species which has consistently demonstrated through its nightmare, history, that it cannot act except through severings, genocides, rapaciousness, and an alert purposiveness?

love is mentioned few times in these 81 vignettes and when it is always in a way that subverts our common orientations. dao doesn’t say love but ruthlessness. not a ruthlessness apart from love as it is not apart from anything. dao does not do apart. (to not take this word or text or any and raise it to an all)

not that ruthlessness of presidents and entrepreneurs that is called expediency and pragmatism, not that squabbling fortress of mothers and fathers and lovers and spouses that is called love, not that ruthlessness of a member of the myriad creatures as it goes about its entertained scrimmage of a life, a ruthlessness called whatever it is called, but some other kind that is not defined by the images in your mind but by dao, undefined, in its inexplicabilities

love, that drippy word, may be destroying us. for the way we practice it is not large. it does not reach beyond our little interests of self and species, around the earth and out to heaven, past the breathing of the infinite spaces between, and further still, something at hand, a vital emptiness

dao acknowledges the paths – of reading all the books, collecting all the lovers, helping all the poor, responding to all the messages, listening to all the podcasts and videos, amassing all the wealth, assuming all the power, knowing all the references and magic tricks, displaying all the beauty … and of holding assiduously to that vitality

and where are the measures and graphs and peer-reviewed articles to show the how and what and why of this? how do i tell that one holds fast to that?

by means of dark virtue, by means of old paths, by means of confused turnings, by means of muddledness and listlessness, by means of this

29.4.18

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[i], …
thisthat i that is (isnot) thatthis we (& not& notor or) they you it her him (notwe notit …)
turned to death like avocados
holding our painjoy loveblob like an ambivalently anticipated foetus
                  {so many negations}
i am not the iota and the zeta
i am an iota
                  {has this growing heap of maps made any difference?}
aside from common base animal survivalist functions which mindlessly tyrannically inform us our preservation is essential – though reason knows it isn’t and consciousness may suggest our annihilation is essential or at least more necessary than its perpetuation  – what of this species we’re cast into is worthy of continuance and can this worth (if it exists) be fostered without what has seemed to this point to be its inevitable violent and oppressive corollaries?
they go   she goes like nairobi giraffes in a tesla dream   you go to the destroyed wilderness to images of the dream and death
  world whose mute noise struts a random script
  words whose laughter hides a bloody game
  time that bit of celery stuck between some teeth
  offending doctors in a dream
but dreams (these horrors speaking grammars incompatible)
offend themselves in nests no bird would nest
what are the measures of a culture’s robustness and security?
and we (cards in shuffling decks) ourselves
seem unoffended by offense’s defense
he (but is it he?) goes too   we all with revolutionary crotches go   you go (and goes nature that woebegotten word) to dreams so old or new humans aren’t even missing
its choreography of the voices of the othervoiced?
so this is that and it is she or zeta’s death and mute the bird
or not (but who can tell?)
{science like a myth portends to tell}
{the merriment you hear is false  it is not genuine  it is empty}
that nutribullet’s waiting for me like an armistice
and visions like an outhouse being dug
the unmeasurable?

… continue in that way of uncontinuing unways of sadoo

20.4.18

almost anything was possible except of course the actual


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almost anything was possible
except of course the actual
 almost anything was possibal
except of course the actule
 almond many things were posse bulls
accept off course the acts (oh well)
 all monde money pings wore aussie bull
axe it quaff coarse free sax orwell
 awl monday monkey brings sore bossy pills
knack knicks doff horse see sex nor bell 
will one day gong for thee
            her relocation to paris was excruciating giving her a frightful memory of arriving in that grey inhumane sad city   she did not get along with her fellow students at the sorbonne – classes there were stupid antiquated abstract scandalously unsuited for lofty needs
aging   a mildly funny running longstanding joke that we humans – perhaps our chief distinction and most underused asset – have the capacity to advance subvert (this subversion of a subversion)  our (primary) task to tweak this gag that in the accumulations of time seems to permit fewer manoeuvrings requiring greater prosthetics to simulate expansions which (in their functional unrealities) engender our requirement – these imaginary adjustments in wits delirious machineries
a life – if allowed to flourish – is always unforgivable
 … taken by and large and with little change through the rhetorics of progress humanity hates humans of culture until they are dead
signs of the titanic sinking   inadequate materials preparation classism sexism greed disorganization …
                  extending with little effort to the boaty human artifice we presently bob in on unfathomable voids … unprepared disorganized fragmented -isms of every description greedy beyond all capacities clinging to any semblance of intelligence or wisdom blindly thrusting forward into alleys of icebergs we do not see so full we are of our own petty grandeur …
the centidog – surely the koreans or chinese (it must be them) should invent the ~100-legged dog if they haven’t already   close to the ground longfur nodiscernibleface (covered by hair) legs barely visible scurrying everywhere going nowhere a hybrid perfection of pethorror
  1. there are the poor students of maps
  1.    those who study in some manner of degree and definition better than poorly (or the poorly as so presented as poor in that above 1) so as to master those who study less   poor poor students
  1.      and those others   given the task of garbage   about whom we should not speak
seeming a competent assemblyline worker in an iso approved facility in knowledges sad smiling industry
 let us enter together ,love, that glottalia of dreams
after marmaladé
after verlame
after more eau
after de che vanities
after our own wurst
after all subtle colour and nervous rhythm
after the faint mixed tints
what more is possible?
after us the savage gods
and
which
tasks
remain
in
these
regulated
barbarisms
we
call
civilization?
·    trace in words tracings of gods evolutions
·       trekdetour around capitalisms freeways
·       record in language geometries of sensation
·       establish an informal school of interior archivists devoted to records and artefacts of invisible factories whose business is an aestheticization of movement
·       run and hide and run from societys savage packs until trapped
·       attempt to become a passable thespian on stages of myself
·       break into a crypt of god in our citys heart to perform obscure autopsies
·       codify curricula for nonexistent disciplines and faculties
·       actively belong to no group
·       translate darkness to darkness using keyboards of light
·       unite vulgarity and purity
·     reduce use of definite articles punctuation use singularities
·       forage for beauty in vast and growing human dumps
·       avoid convention trade assets integrity skill plans morality art knowledge virtue …
·       as mobility becomes stable demobilize   as stability becomes routinized desettle
·       master addiction to everything
·       nurture unlocatable circumferences
·       feed human zoo
·       further guilds of anonymitys arts
·       invent landscapes (outer spaces ghettos inner spaces infinite funhouses mycelial networks ruins and phantasmagorical collapses babelian skies …) of glottalia
·       document uncommunicatings of communication
·       anonymize namings   deculture cultures of namings