11.4.22

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emptiness is a set of principles predicated on a mathematics which can be well realized in the soul but its applications avoid register on the scales of currencies and the markets of measure


most whonyms dont apologize at all but if they do they apologize for the wrong things like they accidentally throw out your carefully curated three thousand dollar vinyl collection and act as if its your fault then forget to buy carrots at the grocery store and prostrate themselves before you in woeful abjection   or scream at you in the art gallery for taking too long in the washroom and dont say sorry then are tearfully contrite when they put a dirty plate in a dishwasher full of clean dishes   this tendency has been effectively ignored by psychologists and scholars which itself is a sign of vast import   its linked to our dedicated individual and collective denial of everything important to instead focus on euphemistic inconsequentialities which is rooted in our blithering bumbleness in that most critical of the arts   confessing      eye set out in these tales to right this disastrous wrong and set the species on the way that would guide all things into a circumferenceless and twinkling calendar


ill share with you now comrades a dirty little secret   calendars real name  the real name of the real calendar or more truly a real name of the real calendar or most truly a simulation of a real name of an intimation of a real calendar         calloohar         a dusty word only to be uttered in the most surreptitious congress      dirty‽      conceived in a filthy hole of a dying boatswain on the banks of the putūmayó as a green anaconda took the petty officer feet first


when i was younger i was turned on by being excited in sex   now im turned on by being bored in it   in both cases the physiophally works the same but the latter approachs far more sophisticated   if youre turned on by excitement in sex youre going to be routinely disappointed as sex even for the most highly active can only comprise small portions of time and inevitably frequently disappoint but if youre turned on by boredom youll be almost continually satisfied  not only because  especially in time  boredom will naturally begin to dominate over excitement  but the more important reasons that the greatest turnons are spiritual and boredoms far kinkier arousing fulfilling than excitement   if you dont believe this youve gone to the wrong schools


i imagine a confessional architected like a panopticon  not simply a confessees box on either side of the confessors booth but entire worlds of boxes in 360° all telling at once so that the confessors overwhelmed with pain and takes on itself the unbearable miseries of the world


i used to think many times that mınıseries  accent on the second syllable with both ıs short  was a sort of set of small miseries  ie life  and it was a bad day when i found out it had something to do with television


i couldve been a postpunker like gira or a supreme court justice like breyer or an exec like jobs or a skullar like zizek or even a novelist like dfwall or zadies but i more wanted to be a clochard   so many talented and untalented young thingosities just do the usual on the ladder presented to them  climbing climbing  with associated rationalizations  but something in me thought but didnt tell me      no      youre clambering a few rungs up many ladders and falling off them all so you stay alive and then im gonna give you an actual physical ladder thirty metres high and thatll be the ladder you love   and so it happened and i havent fallen off that once


its not just boredom thats such a generous giver but also failure   boredom and failure are the twins of data information knowledge wisdom      once in wretched late and latest capitalism some newly arrived manager got us all in a small room and blabbed for hours about that taxonomy   shit was he stupid






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