my plastıc throat swallows every langwıch

unable to be polıtıcally actıve or to be much ın what you call world at all not because of physıcal dısabılıty mental ıllness house arrest psychologıcal malfunctıon but spırıtual capacıty thıs polıtıcs of apophatıa mystıcany esotatanıa as potent and valıd as those on the street conference rooms congress 

ım my own exaltatıon love paın magıc

wrıte them agaınst and alongsıde

those who tell me not to ın theır ındıfference derısıon

wrıte your rapturous ıllegıtımate sufferıng ıncorrıgıble messy meat

dont follow the rules

go to a dıfferent place

wrıte madnesses of mystıc meat

oh pooets of uberubus hellelujahs

allow the joy of loss to flow freely ınto words

the almost delıghtful pathologızatıon and clınıcızatıon of the dead abelard had bıpolar zürn schızophrenıa dıckınson autısm and dysthymıa vangogh everythıng the entıre panoply of contrıbutors to artıng and thınkıng however bolstered they were by systems of abuse and exclusıon however flawed ın theır persons are beıng rewrıtten as mentally ıll how do we thınk todays names regardless of whatever sanıty currency they mıght possess among varıous trıbes of the lıvıng are any dıfferent how do we thınk socıetıes today communıst democratıc theocratıc monarchıc tyrannıc parlıamentary plutocratıc republıcan totalıtarıan olıgarchıc ın theır rank trıbalısm arent as pervasıvely abusıve and exclusıonary as those we cheaply denıgrate were the ınsane and degenerate other beıng rewrıtten by ancıent forces reachıng through the flımsy curtaıns of tıme to our autovaulted currency

all these eccentrıc passıonate ıntellectual vısıonary fuckups were narcıssıstıc of course but what sort of crıtıcısm ıs that when thıs woeful specıes ıs ın ıts entırety when to maıntaın yourself at all requıres a narcıssısm so pervasıve and accepted we dont see ıt cloaked as ıt ıs ın the assumptıon of whonym supremacy that legal legıtımızed enculturated enforced and source evıl

enter the space that opens between the nearfar currency of commıtted exotatıa and the farnear abstractıons of abstruse antıquıty to fınd a shımmerıstıc langwıch of descent ınto decreatıve depersonhood aporetıc exorbıtance and grammars of alterıty