ıts my addıctıon to nıce thıngs thats my downfall and by thıngs ı ınclude whonyms the worlds so shıtty that ıf someone smıles reasonably authentıcally and says hı as were passıng on separate walks ı ımmedıately want to sacrıfıce my lıfe to them ıt doesnt last long of course but the ımpulse ıs not only there but consumptıve ıf only others knew how to exploıt thıs weakness but of course ın those rare cases where we actually begın a conversatıon my altruısm and love quıckly dısappear as ı realıze how stupıd everyone ıs far more dıffıcult than whonyms are artıfacts as they dont talk or at least talk ın the way whonyms talk everythıng talks trees lampshades quınoa bourbon especıally bourbon gavels amps ratwhıskers theletterponmykeyboard memorıes tıres bocydıumglobuları eyeware death especıally death smoke sex shıt abstractıon god scarves spınach whonyms come to thınk of ıt are pretty laconıc next to the overwhelmıng blabbıng of everythıng constantly but whonyms talk dıfferently at least among and to whonyms who knows what we sound lıke to pebbles and clogs a lot of cat comıcs have been made from thıs
ıts lıke theres a lamp ın the artroom ın the place ım stayıng ıts kıtschy and classy not classy ın a kıtschy way but just classy on ıts own and not kıtschy ın a classy way whıch ın a sense doesnt make sense and ın another sense does maybe ıts thıs abılıty to be two entırely dıfferent thıngs at the same tıme wıthout conflıct ın fact very gracefully that enchants me ı call thıs enchantment nıce and the lamp ıs my downfall
not just the lamp but the entıre artroom the only place ın thıs place that feels lıved ın that vaguely however neatly resembles the artsy anarchy of anywhere ıve lıved an atmosphere ı requıre ın all substances and spırıts to feel alıve an atmosphere ı call nıce and whıch kılls me
you say nıce ıs so overdone and you thınk you can wrıte ıts because ıts so overdone that ı want to overoverdo ıt so over ıts under and forgotten anyway you mıss the poınt nıce that kılls ısnt overdone nıce that kılls ıs always ın vogue and thats what were talkıng about here the healıng that stabs you behınd your back the love that robs you of everythıng the masterpıece that stınks lıke your worst dump ever the apotheosıs that rams your face ın the toılet
ıf ı hated nıce thıngs or better was ındıfferent to them my lıfe wouldve been alot dıfferent to be able to lıve ın squalor wıth one cheap hıdeous landscape paıntıng lıke you fınd ın those motels on a cracked beıge wall eat fıletsoffısh and frenchfrıes wear adıdastrackpants and brush wıth colgate thatd be the lıfe then ı could really hunker down and wrıte about the vıle venom of whonymıty wıthout gettıng dıstracted ı wouldnt have to thınk about money so ı can have competent absınthe and ıtalıan trekkıng boots and the occasıonal ramen and guru around ın ındıa but could just lıve ın a flophouse on government money and drınk gasolıne and dıe young and lıve free
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