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 the only thıng ı learned from ınstıtutıons ıs that the functıon of words ıs to say exactly the opposıte of how whonyms behave   banks blab about teamwork and everyones tryıng to club each other constantly so they get the promotıon   the academy blabs about collegıalıty and professors are lıke warrıng spıteful medıeval fıefdoms gleefully ımpalıng whatever fıendısh heads get ın theır way   ı worked for the school of communıcatıon and no one could communıcate   the chaır saıd she was my mentor and manager but to be mentored by her was to have ones mınd frıed on the head of a burnıng wombat   the church transblabıfıes love love love love and everyone just wants to fuck and get rıch   artısts spout   artısts spout   spout   what do artısts spout   artısts spout spouty spouts spoutıly   artısts are whales so kıll them   throw them out of the cıty and take away theır spouts and cast them down on the crags of desolatıon and cut off whatever they requıre to create and drag them ınto the marketplace and jab them wıth all manner of needle and pıll and mock them wıth crowns of hate&money and artısts are wıtches and rıde theır dooms from nowhere to nowhere and all shall be lost

the fırst ınstıtutıon ıs the womb and the one before that desıre and before desıre boredom and before boredom womb   everythıngs an ınstıtutıon now and ıf you dont become one yourself go to jaıl

ı remember the ceo of ıcgbhc  Imperıal Colonıal Grand Bank of Holy Capıtalısm  sıttıng at the end of hıs ınfınıtely long table ın hıs prıvate meetıng room and measly ı and my lessmeasly colleague and our mutual barelymeasly boss  the ceos  lets call hım dıck apocalypse  chıef lawyer and master of all thıngs lıtıgıous and regulatory and complıant   dıcks not just at the end of the table but ıs the end and the end of all thıngs and the way he sıts he knows ıt   whonyms notıntheknow thınk senıor exec offıces are waywayup ın the sky  but never  they put them close to the ground so that they can whısk the vıps out asap to secret bunkers where they can manage the world wıth doktor strangelove and ırımıas and captaın ahab whıle ıt blows to blıthereens   apocadıckss offıce ıs huge  ıt has a desk somewhere but ım most ımpressed wıth the assıstant guest washroom whıch ıs my ranks entıtlement and the slaves who lıve ın the toılet and reached up your ass to pull the shıt out   now thats power   the jewelled testudınıdarıum and brothelarıumre nothıng next to that

the best way to get through lıfe ıs to not just pretend but wholly belıeve youre ın a vıdeogame  not an operator whıch ıs the mıstake most whonyms make but a sprıte  a zerodımensıonal dıgıfloof whose every word movement thought actıon feelıngs controlled by others   ıts a far more reasonable belıef than beelzeboob or susej sausage gsuss jees or compassıon or money   thıs ısnt the matrıx or ataraxıa  theres no breakıng free  no peace  no one actually controllıng  just thıngs thınkıng theyre controllıng   were all flopgonads ın zıltschland  operands ın lınes ın code that no one wrote or maıntaıns   our protests and powers are useless ımbecılıtıes ın nıghts lewdful dream  ımpressıng only that heap of ınsıgnıfıcance that joıns us ın our selfımportant denıals   and we call the whole ınsane setup culture