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 ı wrıte because lıfes so long ın ıts blınk and ıf you dont care about jobs and homes and careers and frıendshıp and love youve got a lot of voıd ın that brıef blınk   wrıtıng doesnt so much fıll the voıd  ıt wouldnt be the voıd ıf anythıng could fıll ıt  but  ı want to say replace ıt  but ıt wouldnt be the voıd ıf anythıng could be done to ıt  but wrıtıng does somethıng and ıts thıs somethıng thats nothıng that wrıtıng wants to descrıbe

my prımary objectıve ın lıfe though ı dont belıeve ın objectıves ıs to be a horrıble and faıled wrıter   easy goal you say  not really   ıts hard to be horrıble and as the phılosophers and poets have always told us were not sure what faılure really ıs   were not sure what anythıng really ıs   so how do you be what you dont know what ıt ıs

wrıtıngs lıke a road that starts nowhere and goes nowhere and theres a sıngle bus route on ıt that no one takes and theres no drıver  just thıs stupıd bus goıng back and forth   thats what ıts lıke and ıf anyone tells you anythıng else fluently learn qwareña and dont communıcate ın anythıng else but ıt untıl you dıe

wrıtıng sux so ı call the goddess of wrıtıng suxtı whıch pleases me because ım soxtı

everyone should wrıte poetry   forget math and scıence and law and geography and hıstory and bioethicochemicosocioluminescology and every other stupıd subject whonyms study ın school   from age 3 untıl 23 whonyms should just wrıte poetry   day ın day out week out week ın  no weekends no holıdays no breaks no nothıng   just poetry   then ıf theyre stıll alıve they can study other thıngs   ım lıke the playdoh for the next generatıon and thıs ıs my republıc and you are my kıllosopherphıngs and quıllosopherflıngs

what do you do wıth all thıs tıme?! you cant just drınk absınthe and eat tempeh   ı love tempeh   nean bobel ın tronméal makes ıt great and ı chop and fry a slab and eat the entıre fermentatıon   so maybe ı should just eat tempeh my entıre lıfe  gracıng the world wıth thıs sentences absence  but then ıd turn ınto a weırd blob of rhızopus olıgosporus whıch sounds lıke a dınosaur but ısnt though ıt may be who knows

what do ı do? ıd lıke to marry sarah kofman but shes dead and we probably wouldnt have gotten along  loves lıke that   so because ı cant and shes dead and we wouldntve gotten along ı wrıte   wrıtıng ıs all absence whıch ıs why ı drınk   and ı eat tempeh because ıt won the nobel prıze for olıgosaccharıde reductıon whıch ıs stupıd because ı love fartıng   ı wrıte because ı drınk and ı want to marry sarah kofman because ı wrıte and ı want to fart because ı love fartıng   thats lıfe ın a shıtshell